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The best thing I have ever done in my life was to get sober, which I did over 9 years. I was 12 years old I began drinking. At that time I also started smoking pot. I recognize now that I was trying to escape my adolescent feelings of inadequacy, and I wanted to fit in with my peers.
It was the early seventies and it seemed that everyone was getting high. For 24 years I continued using, till 1997, when I woke up one morning and recognized that I just couldn’t to live like this any longer. I consider myself very lucky, as bad karma had begun to surround me everywhere I turned. I was kept safe from real harm however, as I like to put it, I was a medium bottom drunk. I lost my integrity and scruples, but was able to keep my furniture.
At the time I was making very good money, but a huge hole kept building inside of me and I knew that I was addicted and couldn’t stop using. My drinking and pot smoking turned to cocaine and then eventually crack. I recognized that I was sinking fast and it was only by the grace of God, a good therapist, and a caring doctor, that I finally was able to get on the track to sobriety.
I went into an evening re-hab, and finished that program in a few months. The key is to remember that I have a disease, the disease of alcoholism. It is an obsession of the mind, affecting our physical, emotional, and spiritual states.
My suggestion is to truly turn your “will” over to a higher power, the energy of the universe, God, whatever you choose to call it. If you realize that there is a power greater than yourself, then you are half way home. It causes an immediate sense of humility allowing you get out of your ego, and step into some sense of freedom. It is a new path, and a new day.
For me a twelve step program truly worked. Everyone has their own thing that will help them from picking up a drink or a drug. Find what that is, and stick with it. It also helped me to be reading spiritual literature. Books such as “Conversations with God” and anything by Marianne Williamson really helped. anything by Marianne Williamson really helped.
